Recently, I have found myself longing for adrenaline. It’s a weird feeling to want crazy things to happen, but I find myself hoping to be surprised. I work in an emergency room and I do jiu jitsu, so I try as hard as I can to give a facilitated version of the adrenaline I seek. I cannot explain it.
The mundane parts of life cannot hold my attention but when shit is hitting the fan, I am in my element.

Maybe I need to take up paintball.

Jonathan